Since I was about 18 years old I have been trying to “lose weight”. I have been on this diet and that diet, spent countless thousands of dollars at various weight loss centers, supplements, diet systems, so on and so forth. Sure I lost weight, in some cases I actually managed to get to my goal weight. Then it found me again.. or did I find it? So start over, lose the weight, gain it back, lose the fat, gain it back.What is going on here… ok from the dietary and exercise aspects, I stopped the healthy eating and really until this year (2010) I never exercised. So of course, if I don’t eat healthy and burn what I consume in calories I will put those shed pounds back on.Is there more too it though?I think so… Most of us have seen the movie, read the book, or at least heard of The Secret. It has to do with the law of attraction. That what we think about often enough happens to us. That self-fullfilling prophecy so to speak. So what is going on when we say ” I lost weight this week?” or ” I lost 3 lbs” or even ” I dropped 4 lbs”…
energetically speaking in our minds eye, what are we saying…Not sure?Ok, lets analyze this now… if you lose your cellphone, what do you do… you hunt desperately for it, and if you can’t find it you go and buy a new one.. what if you lose the $20 in your pocket for lunch that day… if you have more in the bank you’d go get another $20 to replace it… how about losing your favourite Papermate pen, yet again, we’d go out and replace it… now the word “dropped” … if you drop something, what do you do… you pick it up, you retrieve it, you bring it back to yourself… So, how is this use of words affecting weight “loss”…If we have all thought of “loss”, “lost”, “dropped” in the manner in which the words are used above, what are we saying when we use “I lost 3lbs” or “weight loss”… in our brains are we not saying “OMG I lost something I’d better find it quick!”, even subconsciously? I believe so.This is why I use the phrase “Freely gave back ___lbs/___inches to the Universe” when I speak about the changes in my weight and inches. I freely gave back 3lbs of fat to the Universe this week -I feel this really makes a difference. I “gave it away freely” in other words, I do not want or need it back, I won’t go looking for it as I gave it away consciously, even on the subconscious level as I am not using the words “lost” “loss” “dropped” or any other word associated with a loss of some sort.You could also say “I’ve gained 3lbs of lightness this week” .. again changing that mindset, those thought pattens so that on the subconscious level we don’t go looking for that which we “lost”…I know it is more to type or say when telling someone of your accomplishments, but, I feel it is worth the extra second or two it takes to stop my brain from thinking I have to find something I just said I lost! Have a great week and happy “giving back”.

 I have been off the tracking and exercising routine for about 12 or so days. I was really quite sick, ended up actually being taken to hospital by ambulance last week at 3am. 5 days of medications and a few more days of doing absolutely nothing. I am back to it. I have not spent so much time on the couch doing nothing in years now… it felt rather strange but I had no option…Yesterday, (Monday), I was thinking “I should get on my bike”… I didn’t.. I had no motivation and my energy levels were still low so I promised myself and told others I was going to do it… keep me accountable. It worked.This morning, I got dressed in my exercise clothes ~ getting that mindset right ~ and then did my normal routine. I procrastinated a while before getting on that bike.. but I am glad I did.60 minutes of biking to various Queen songs (they rock don’t they?) really made a difference. I noticed that I couldn’t go as fast nor as hard as I had before I got sick. Actually, I feel that my energy is less than when I first started on the bike to begin with right now. So I am nourishing myself with stinging nettle tisanes and praises that I did it regardless. I went my 60 minutes, even did my two little “power bursts” to Bohemian Rhapsody – the first one was ok, it’s at the start of the routine, the last one was hard as heck to get through, even though it’s only 15 – 20 seconds of major peddling. Still. I DID IT…Tonight is yoga.. so, going to go slow on that, esp as I have missed 2 classes. I don’t have my cardio tonight as I do yoga instead. Tomorrow is 60 min of cardio in morning, 30 min of weights in afternoon and 30 min of cardio at night.. see how that goes too.I realize that this is going to take a few days to get my strength and stamina back up to where it was before I got sick, and I am ok with that.Now I am tired, and going to go eat.Thank you to all who gave words of support and encouragement.